Everything is falling into place. I love life. I really hope things continue to go as well as they’ve been going, because in a lot of ways I think this is the happiness I’ve waited years to find. New job, new car (hopefully, we’ll find out this week), new love, new happiness. I can’t wait to see what happens next!
Dealing with some unexpected anxiety tonight so I thought I’d write something. It’s been a while since I’ve felt these pent up, nervous, and pensive emotions which is a good thing. College was a four and a half year bout of anxiety and I’m so glad to be off of that roller coaster. Life has been throwing some curve balls at me lately, however, and that has forced me to think about a lot of things. My job, my future, my relationships, my maturity.
I don’t mean to be insensitive or hurt anybody’s feelings. I’m just very very happy, the kind of happy you want to shout from a hilltop, and it’s hard not to share it with everyone. I am not a very private person, even when I want to be.
We will all find our lost princess or Prince charming at some point. Just because we weren’t that for each other doesn’t mean we can’t be that for someone else. All wounds heal and even scars can sometimes be erased, I’ve learned. Find your happiness. It’s waiting for you. I promise.
"I know I don’t know you as well as a lot of people do, but I know that people joke with you and tease you a lot, and you probably don’t mind somewhat and just let it go, but don’t let anyone ever tell you that you aren’t worth something or that you aren’t special or beautiful or excellent or anything of that nature! Always be encouraged that you have made it this far, to a place where so many people have already given up or have had a ton of regrets, and that is something to be extremely proud of. You have great things in store for you, and the right people at the right time will see those things and it will all be worth it!"